[day 13] Thirty Day Photo Challenge: September 2012 Edition

Today’s photo is of the verses that go with my earlier post, Jesus: Calmer of Anxiety. Being anxious has been a struggle of mine, especially during Grad school. I don’t like failing and tend to hold too high of a standard on myself. This story reminds me of the calm that should be in my life. Why should I be afraid?? I have faith! It is enough.

Day 13:


Jesus: Calmer of Anxiety

Here’s the email I got:

Hi Studio friends! If you are receiving this email from us it’s because we have you scheduled to serve this weekend in the Studio. JR will be speaking on one of my very favorite names of God. Dying to know which one?  It’s found in Mark 4:35-40. To be entered into our exciting drawing for something GREAT, figure out his name using the passage and share with us a time He has proven Himself to be worthy of that name in your life. You have until noon on Saturday to deliver on the challenge. Go, friends, GO!
Your week is about to get better with the illumination of Mark 4:35-40!

Here’s the response I gave:

So I want to participate in the sharing, but I don’t want to win anything. Sharing is fun enough for me :) What is Jesus’s name here? Really, you want just one?? I see Peace in the Storm, Calmer of Anxiety, Rest in Chaos, Defeater of Fear, Defender of Faith… it keeps going. I love how God can use just five verses to share so much of his nature and truth with us. My name pick for the story is “Calmer of Anxiety.” The most anxious time in my life was a weekend this past July. I had a CPA exam that put me sick to my stomach with dizziness, cold sweats and all that horrid stuff. So many people were praying. The day of the exam the anxiety was intensely worse, but Jesus is the Calmer of Anxiety. Not five minutes into my 3hr test, Jesus had me in tears with his goodness and peace. Never have I felt a calm as intense as that one. Safe to say the exam turned out fine! Jesus: Calmer of Anxiety.Lauren

What do you see in that passage?? What are the other names of Jesus that I missed? What’s your story? Feel free to comment or link me to your response. Facebook responses count too!! :) I love hearing other perspectives. I think that’s why I love this new challenge given by my friend, Melanie. Every week she sends us a copy of the verses in the lesson and we get to guess about the name and share our story. LOVE IT!
To view those verses, click here.


Completely overwhelmed again
Dazed, confused, alone and then
Try to find where to begin
Completely overwhelmed again

Must purge this pollution
So start a revolution
Of impolite intrusion
To purge this pollution

Back to when it started
Where my heart was hardened
And kept from begging pardon
Go back to when it started

Overwhelmed and surrounded
Can’t you see I’m being hounded
Save me fast because I’m drowing
Overwhelmed and surrounded

Don’t know how to free myself
Always doing something else
My mind is sick; I need your help
Don’t know how to free myself

Give me truth because I want more
This is my way of asking for
Someone to unlock the door
Give me truth because I want more

Completely overwhelmed again
Dazed, confused, alone and then
Try to find where to begin
God rescues me once again.

So Mournful The Elegy, So Comforting The Hymn

A friend of mine posted this song and it struck something in me. Worry has eaten me alive before. The anxiety that literally leads to physical sickness, antisocial behaviors, and deep depression complete with crying, loss of appetite, and avoidance of conversation. I’m not that way now, but I’ve been there before and have no desire to go back. Being there yourself is hard, but even harder than that is watching those you love (friends AND family) face the same dragon of despair.

Hymns From Nineveh – So Mournful The Elegy, So Comforting The Hymn

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The wait is on!

Today is the prerelease day for cpa exam scores. They might be up or they might not. Either way, waiting on them feels like an anxious tummy ache. AND they might not be posted today at all!! I’m dubbing this cpa exam trauma. That’s a real thing right? I think so.